![]() Heather said: 'Anorexia is in some ways such a selfish thing, it's all about you, how you look, what you're putting into your body. Luckily it did not return and she had a healthy and happy pregnancy. Heather and partner Darren Anderson, 37, who works in IT security, were delighted but Heather then started to worry that the anorexia would return when she saw her body expanding. However, in August 2009, she found out she was expecting. She thought the bone problems, particularly around her pelvis, would mean she could never conceive. She again recovered but her body was irreparably damaged.ĭoctors told her they thought she had had a small heart attack.Īnd her bone density had plummeted, leaving her frame as brittle as a much older woman's. In her early twenties, again away from home in Switzerland, she had a small relapse. She gradually built up her weight and achieved her personal goal of returning to university after a year. 'But I wanted to live so I knew I had to eat.' 'Something changed, I realised I had been very slowly committing suicide. 'That was a tremendous shock for me,' the journalist said. ![]() She refused to go to hospital and her heartbroken parents had to have her sectioned to get her into a psychiatric ward.įive days later she tried to discharge herself but doctors told her if she did she would have only a fortnight left to live. Now it became more about weight and what would happen to her if she ate. Upset to be back in Edinburgh, Heather's anorexia got even worse. ![]() Heather was so frail she went back in a wheelchair. When her mum visited her in France she was horrified and took her straight back home. 'I had this skeletal face, I looked like an old woman - it was horrible but I couldn't see it.' 'When I was in the bath I had to put my hands under myself because my bones were sticking out and it was painful. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even lift my head from the pillow, I found it difficult to walk. I could spend hours staring at my favourite food in the supermarket but I wasn't allowed to touch it or buy it. 'But at the same time I was obsessed with it. She said: 'I was terrified of food, even to take a sip of soup. Heather ate just a small piece of fruit most days and the 5 feet 4 ins student soon shrank to just five stones. Spending her fourth year in Paris, living alone with no one to notice, the problem got worse. She started obsessively regulating what she put into her body. Trying hard to control her life and not always able to, eating was the one thing she could control. Terrified of food: Heather was too frightened to take even a sip of soup when she was illĪ steady size eight to ten, she was starting her French and history degree at Edinburgh University when she began feeling the pressure to do well.
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